
Not only did I spend all day shopping for law outfits (lawfits), Neil spent most of the day making this animation. It’s so great. It’s like one of those horrible animated jifs that are never-ending.
Basically, I went to a “How to get a job in the law” workshops at my school. They told us that if we didn’t have a black suit that we had better go out and buy one a-sap. Since I did not own ANYTHING even remotely close to a black suit I took advantage of “civil rights day” (as it is called in Utah) and went shopping.
I now own three suits. The good ol’ black standby so that interviewers will think that I have no personality (because apparently that is what they are looking for?) and two more livin’ on the edge suits.

Can you picture me in a courtroom? Me neither. I look too much like an adult! (except for the far left… that was the outfit I was wearing while shopping for the suits
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A few months back I was asked to be on a panel representing “Mormon youth.” I declined, because I’m not sure a 28 year old married woman can technically be considered a youth…especially in Mormondom. In Mormon-time I should already have 5 children.
I am so torn because being adult is often associated with assimilation. If you can’t conform, you just haven’t grown up yet. If you see an adult man without a typical career, or a woman who voluntarily remains childless you hear that they “just need to grow up.” (Or a suitless law student).
At the workshop where lawyers were teaching us how to get law jobs, one of the panel mentioned the MOST absurd thing he’d ever heard in an interview was a guy asking if he could work 1/2 the time for 1/2 the pay. Everyone laughed at the ABSURDITY of not wanting to assimilate to the 9-5 (6,7,8…) corporate scheme. “How immature.” But, if losing all creativity and zest for life is “growing up” you can officially check me in as a lost boy. Luckily, they could not hear my heart breaking, since that is my ideal work-schedule. I thought it was a brilliant idea up to that very moment. But, I guess wanting to do other things besides work is not very grown up.
I am far from figuring anything out about adulthood, and often still feel like the word adult is not an accurate description of me, but I think at it’s root it has to do with learning selflessness. Perhaps this is why it it so closely associated with child-rearing. Children demand that all of their wants be met. They have a hard time considering the needs of others. They do not want to be even mildly inconvenienced.
Perhaps true “growing up” is not so much a function of chronology, but of character… + one good- looking, expensive suit.